"… my goal and motivation is to wake up early every day, drink coffee, play with my daughter, kiss my beautiful wife, and then spend double-digit hours trying to create things that will make people happy, productive, entertained, inspired, and even a little more awesome — and, on those rarest and most joyful of days, maybe I’ll even make something that combines all of those qualities."
my little brother is in that phase every middle schooler goes through when blink 182 is the greatest band you’ve ever known and travis barker is god
I went through this phase in seventh grade oh my god I still have the posters
i hated this song. i always skipped it.
I remember driving around listening to this c.d. with my mom’s boyfriend. He told me this song was written about their friend who killed himself. It gave me a life long appreciation of it.
Clean sheets and towels.
Sunday night sketches.
What do you have stopping you? A genuine coat? Layer. See what happens.
do you ever listen to a song and feel this deep inconsolable sadness that makes your chest physically ache but yet it’s the most beautiful feeling in the world (via arwenevenstars)
I guess it’s six ayem now
Why do I do this.
I’m currently dating someone who is absolutely nothing like me, who I’ve been driving six hours round trip to see every few weeks and professing my love to for about three months and I can’t seem to think of why. He is beautiful and not only physically, though his smile is something that I almost live to see. He is generally caring. I think I do love him.
He doesn’t challenge me, he doesn’t hold any excitement. I feel as though when I enter into a relationship, I am so excited about what it may hold that I am more than willing to give everything I have to see the outcome that I hold in my mind. We’ve discussed marriage, our thoughts on children. He is very eager to begin a family and I have expressed similar interests, which is odd because at this point in my life, I am not interested in either of those things. I don’t think I want this, but he makes me want it. Either that or I tell him that I want it because I want him so badly. I don’t even know anymore. My ability to get caught up in a person rivals my ability to breathe. That’s just it, I get so caught up so quickly without thinking about what I really want or need or whether or not this person is actually good for me. I’m not sure if I even know what love means, it’s all just lust and fast actions. It’s all so confusing and I don’t know how to deal with it. And if it is love, I don’t know how to adapt to a life where I just love one.
Typically, I date someone until I find someone else more exciting or interesting and then I act as though the previous suitor didn’t exist. I’m terrible, I’m awful, I’m the worst. Scum. I don’t know why. And I just recently realized how awful that is. I’ve been doing it for two years atleast, and I just realized that I am ruining and hurting and fucking up other people because I refuse to give them the closure that they fairly deserve.
I am in love with too many people and that’s the way it has always been. Hopefully that isn’t the way it always is, but I don’t know how to change my nature and I don’t know that I would want to. As beautiful as it sounds to love one person forever, I think that would change the way that I love and I don’t want that. I wouldn’t want that unless it happened naturally, one day someone walked into my life and we just loved eachother ridiculously and unabashedly and like never before.
Whenever I start seeing someone, I map out this scenario of how it would be if we stayed together forever. It’s always beautiful, it’s always perfect, and it’s always me that fucks it up.
I just don’t know what to do. Que classic vague cry for help.